Cautiously Optimistic. . . screw it, All The Way Optimistic!

Well, as of this morning I am officially a Weight Watcher.  I was going to type "again", but I'm not focusing on that part.  Seriously.  Although I will take one brief moment to state that I lost all this weight once and gained it all back once, and I am NOT doing THAT cycle again!  This time the pounds lost will be even more precious because I know not to take them for granted.  I am going to be like a grizzly bear guarding my weight loss!

I need to get my tracker going again, but right now I'm too lazy to go back through and do the math.  But here's some crappy news. . . my scale has been averaging 5-6 "step-ons" to get my 2 same readings in a row.  (It always varies slightly, so I wait until I get the same number twice to know it's *official*.)  So yesterday to honor my new journey, I got a new scale.  And holy crap, as of this morning my official starting weight for WW is 206.6.  I'm not even going to trip (well, maybe a little) because I know I didn't gain 6 pounds overnight.  I'm still the same, I still have the same work ahead of me, I just have a more accurate tool now.

WW set a first goal of 5%, so my next goalpost is 196.3.  I'm still sticking with my original rewards schedule (though my dates are going to be off), but as far as WW goes, this is my official focus right now.  I like it too, because it's more safely under 200 than 199.9 is.

I'm pretty excited.  Something about starting a new job and being close to actually getting my own life back on track has triggered something, and I feel more calm and ready to do this.  WW is a good tool because even though it's already stuff I *know*, it just seems easier to put the reigns in their hands and let them tell me what to do.  It's not up to me to make healthy choices, I'm just following the plan.  Less stress.  I am the 6-year-old of dieting, and I definitely need supervision.  When I have my own kitchen again, if I still HATE tracking, there's a "Simply Filling" option where I don't have to track, but I only eat foods off the "Power Foods" list (so they're still in charge, lol) - it's basically clean eating.  For now it's easier to stick to my Lean Cuisines and yogurts.

Sooooo here we go!  I still want to focus on FEELING good as much as LOOKING good along the way, so that will be something to think about and figure out as I go.