Bleah, another gain

Today: 208.1

Total loss:   N/A

Next mini goal (199.9 = Under 200):  8.2 lbs to go!

Final Goal (150 lbs):  58.1 lbs to go!

Goals Met:  N/A

Boooooo, I’ve been putting this off all day.  Basically I know what I have to do, I just don’t want to do it.  Which is why I am still gargantuan.  At some point, the not wanting to be fat is going to override the not wanting to diet.  It boggles my mind that I continue to choose fat over dieting, but the results speak for themselves.  Yes, losing weight is hard.  Tracking calories suck.  But do they really suck more than being hot and uncomfortable in the summertime but not being able to throw on shorts and tank top without wanting to die?  REALLY?  Because that’s what I’m saying with my continued choices.  “I would rather be over 208 pounds than not be able to eat whatever I want.”  “This bag of cheese popcorn is totally worth being 208 pounds.”  “Being 208 pounds is more fun than getting on the elliptical for 20 minutes.” 

So I just have to either suck it up and do what I don’t want to do, or start looking into “Big is Beautiful” books and rearrange my entire mindset.  I’m not ready for that yet, I’m just not.

And so, we begin the dreaded calorie tracking.  And the STICKING TO calorie limits.  No, I won’t be perfect, but I’m going to aim for it.  There’s too much of a slippery slope when I allow myself a “free day” or “one treat a week” that I don’t have to track.  So I downloaded MyFitnessPal on my phone again.  For tracking, it’s just cleaner for me than SparkPeople.  

I HAVE to get into the damn gym too.  I’m going to aim for 3 workouts/week.  Maybe I’ll get all excited about my Zombie app once I start doing it and want to go more often, but 3 is the official goal.  Plus the abs challenge, starting today.

Homework for tomorrow:  Create the “why we want to lose weight” running post (if Choco hasn’t already) and put my reasons on there.  Create mini goal list and figure out reward system.  GO TO GYM.